Insecurities.

It's late in the night, and I'm still thinking about so many things. I can't believe I will graduate in a month's time. I really wonder what will happen after I have left the school. Will I stay I'm touch with my friends? Will I meet Alisha after she has moved to the US? I will really miss all my friends.Especially Alisha, since she's emigrating to America. I'm just afraid that I might not see her again.
Most of all, I'm just feeling like everything is hopeless, and I'm such a letdown to my parents. Somehow, I can never be the top in everything I do, and I'm just hovering around nowhere. I'm trying my utmost,but everything I do is mediocre. why? I really don't know.
I'm trying to put my faith in God, but my faith keeps wavering. I keep praying, but it seems like God has other plans for me. And I don't know what exactly to do.
I'm just confused as ever. God, help me?

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